growing up in the country
Written at 8:18 a.m. on 2004-08-25
WELL IT IS GOING TO BE A LONG DAY 7:30 AM TO 9:00 PM WOW I HATE WEDNSDAYS!!!!
I AM GOING BACK TO MY HOME TOWN THIS WEEKEND,I TRY TO GO BACK LIKE 2 TIME A MONTH. MY DAD IS DOING SOME THINGS TO THE HOUSE,HE'S NOT SURE IF HE WANTS TO STAY THERE OR SELL IT.THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT WANTS HIM TO SELL THE HOUSE,AND THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT WANTS HIM KEEP IT.
THERE COMES A TIME,WHEN YOU GET OLDER AND YOU LIKE TO HAVE THOSE THINGS THAT TAKE YOU BACK TO YOUR CHILDHOOD,AND THAT HOUSE TAKES ME BACK!CAMPING IN THE BACK YARD,AND THE GOOD OL GAMES OF KICK BALL,WITH THE KIDS IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD.
I LOVE THAT HOUSE,AND THE TOWN WHERE IT IS.WHEN I WAS A YEAR OLD MY PARENTS BOUGHT THE HOUSE,AND MY PARENTS RAISED MY BROTHER AND I THERE UNTIL I WAS 13 AND MY BROTHER 15.MY PARENTS SEPERATED,AND WE WENT WITH MY MOM,TO LIVE IN THE CITY.
I THINK IN MY OWN WEIRD WAY IT MAKES ME FEEL CLOSER TO MY MOM,SHE LOVED THAT HOUSE.WHEN IT'S JUST MY DAD AND I STANDING IN THE KITCHEN,IT FEELS LIKE THE WHOLE FAMILY IS STILL THERE,LIKE WE NEVER LEFT.
I KNOW SHE IS STILL THERE.
I ABOUT A MONTH AGO MY DAUGHTER AND I STAYED WITH MY DAD FOR THE WEEKEND.WE WENT OUT TO THE BACK YARD TO SEE MY DADS FINISHED PROJECT,LET ME JUST TELL YOU THIS BEFORE I GO ANY FURTHER.MY MOM HAD A FAVORITE BIRD AND A FAVORITE COLOR,HER COLOR WAS RED AND HER BIRD WAS A CARDINAL. MUCH SURPRISE TO MY DAD AND I THE BRIGHTEST RED CARDINAL I HAD EVER SEEN CAME FLYING RIGHT IN FRONT OF US,IT STAYED FOR A WHILE,AND FLEW FROM TREE TO TREE I THE YARD. MY DAD PUT HIS HAND ON MY SHOULDER, I KNEW WHAT HE WAS THINKING, I SAID "THATS HER" HE JUST LOOKED AT ME AND SMILED.
IT'S THE LITTLE THINGS THAT MEAN SO MUCH,I LIKE TO HOLD ONTO THEM FOR AS LONG AS I CAN.THE LONGER HE STAYS, THE MORE I FEEL LIKE I HAVE MY FAMILY BACK,I CAN'T EXPLAIN WHY I FEEL THAT WAY ,IT'S JUST A COMFORTABLE FEELING, AND I LIKE THAT.
